// look for the girl with the broken smile

Monday, November 20, 2006

In-between entertainment

I don't mind people not spending time with me. Not at all. What i mind is, when they ask me out just to fill up the empty time slot(s) between programmes. For half or one hour, they request my company. In the name of... spending time together? Catching up? Then after awhile, zoom they're gone. Without informing you beforehand, without telling you during and just giving you an apologetic smile before leaving.

So say, if i am alone with that person, i would be alone after he/she left. And i would look so fucking stupid.

I don't care if you think i am petty, or weird, or bitchy. But i think you are the one being bitchy.

I don't fancy being someone's in-between entertainment. I don't like feeling like something which you call up to waste some time with before going off to do something supposedly more worthwhile.

I don't mind if you call me up for lunch or dinner, and afterwards proceeding to work/study. But i don't care much of the company if you are really just plain using me to while the time away. Like, no thanks.

I'm not the popcorn you run out to get during intervals of a movie. Heck no. Even the popcorn would be able to accompany you through the whole movie.

Damn. Now i'm sounding like a grouchy old lady, constantly moaning about how bad life is. It's not really like this. But i just have to encounter some sucky people and spend suck-ier times with them.

Liberate me from suckers, please!

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Neat! I found this while blog hopping. Enjoy.

STEP 1: GO HERE OR ANY WEBSITE THAT HAS LOTS OF PICTURES. I THINK THIS PAGE DESCRIBES MY CURRENT SITUATION QUITE WELL. WHICH IS ALSO WHY I’M TYPING LIKE THIS.

STEP 2: COPY AND PASTE THIS:

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INTO THE ADDRESS BAR. THAT'S RIGHT. JUST COPY AND PASTE THAT INTO THE ADDRESS BAR. THE ADDRESS BAR IS THAT THING THAT SAYS HTTP:// AT THE TOP OF YOUR BROWSER. MAKE YOU SURE DELETE EVERYTHING THERE WHEN YOU'RE PASTING THE CODE.

STEP 3: BE AMAZED AT THE WHIRLING SHIT

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about [22/9/06]
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1. Many people often mis-spell or mis-pronounce my name.
2. I am 159cm tall. Stop laughing.
3. I have a typical Leo character. Big ego, feisty etc.
4. I am a narcissist aka a camwhore.
5. I am loud. Very.
6. I have my ~~occasional~~ regular bouts of depression.
7. I am a born bookworm and mugger.
8. My favourite colour is purple!
9. I am ailurophobic.
10. I am very indecisive.
11. I have this bad habit of not separating numbers before nouns when i blog.
12. I like to whistle.
13. I have grammar and subject-verb agreement problems.
14. I like to dance, though i cannot really.
15. I am a day-dreamer, even at night.
16. I can talk about anything all day long.
17. I am a crapper. *see above
18. I am always sneezing.
19. I am a hopeless romantic.
20. I sing out of tune all the time.
21. I am very wild.
22. My facade is cute! ^0^
23. I am a half-good, half-bad person.
24. I am selfish.
25. I am a girl, albeit a tomboy.
26. I look better in photos. ^-^
27. I am very impatient.
28. I cannot tolerate people acting stupid / clever.
29. I am very bossy at times.
30. I cannot bear the thought of eating alone.
31. I like jogging. ^.^
32. I want to learn the piano. Practically crazy 'bout it.
33. My daily sleeping hours can be counted on 1 hand.
34. I am old ; aching everywhere.
35. I seldom worry about BIG stuff like the sky falling on me.
36. I worry about nitty gritty things.
37. I can't follow.
38. I am very ambitious.
39. And sadistic.
40. I have an addiction : cute guys.
41. I write cliche poems.
42. I love myself.
43. Addiction #2 : Shopping and spending money.
44. I have a wish : To shit everyday.
45. I like to scream.
46. I do not like to lose my voice.
47. I wish i could scream and not lose my voice.
48. I am very (self) contradictory.
49. I am neurotic about arrangement of things in my life.
50. I arrange things alphabetically, by colours or shapes.
51. People complaining about high dental costs irk me off.
52. I love to eat bread.
53. I can play the guzheng.
54. I write better than i speak.
55. I speak ~~badly~~ incoherently.
56. I almost always never finishes my sentences.
57. I experienced full fledged jealousy at age of 17.
58. I am always thinking of the worst possible case.
59. I dare not hope to hope.
60. I am usually in a pensive mood.
61. Hm. Horny. Me? Hmm..
62. I have a high sex drive. =D
63. I love dirty jokes.
64. And normally could get them immediately.
65. I am very reckless and often run headlong into brewing trouble.
66. I get very nervous when i have to do a presentation regarding physics.
67. I love to clean my ears, even when it's cleaned. HAHA.
68. I snore when i sleep. *snorts.
69. This is my favourite number. =)
70. I want to be a person without yeast ; to breathe and grow on my own.
71. I dream of fame and recognition on alternate days.
72. I panick about national exams (read: A level) every other day.
73. I have got a very big sweet tooth.
74. I love with all my heart possible.
75. I am an attention-seeking bitch.
76. I am quite a social creature.
77. Yet, i love the quiet moments with my book and chocolate cake in hand.
78. I am crazy.
79. I have an extremely bad sense of direction.
80. I can type fast. =D
81. I have a runaway nose most of the time.
82. I have a big hip which is disproportionate on my body.
83. I am hopeless with directions.
84. I am always blog-hopping.
85. I have a passion for languages.
86. And huge interest in sciences.